What’s it like to be an introvert who is also an over-thinker? If I could explain it in one word, it would be easy! But many thoughts and even more conversations go behind the simple answer. Yes, I am an introvert with the capacity to carry on a conversation in my head. And I do not even need another person to complete this conversation!
The night before, I sleep with resolve but in the morning, it is a struggle to get out of bed because I cannot decide what I would do with my time. This is what every waking moment feels like—the ideas competing with each other to get executed. And in the end, the time runs out. It has its perks too and some downfalls.
1. I am happy in my own company
There is a sense of being independent. I do not need anyone to help me with a task, go to market, or do anything. It makes sense to be in my own company because, to be in my circle, you would have to be unique and be ready that I would not share you with anyone. But the downside is that my own company sometimes makes me feel lonely, and the need to socialize or be with someone tugs my heart. And not many people can have what I look for in a friend.
2. I have high expectations
Expectations can either make you hard on others and sometimes can ruin relationships. But anyone who meets my expectations must know how to walk through fire to be with me. The inner circle has limited people, and I am alright with it.
The high expectations are not only from others but expect a lot from myself sometimes puts me in the mode where I fail and become paralyzed by the fear of failure (sometimes even false expectations). These can turn into daydreaming very quickly.
3. I create my path
What are different trends or what the other person is doing hardly bothers me as I move ahead with what I have already thought about. If I have already had a discussion with myself (being an over-thinker), I have already seen the pros and cons, so there is not much that can sway me away (apart from my mind). Life is full of drama; never a dull day.
My being an over-thinker and lack of social skills attract a lot of flakes from my people (family and friends). I am more comfortable in my pyjamas than in a dress. The conversations are single-sided and can extend for a long time, but they are always informative. My overthinking has never let me down. And I have a few people I can count on when in doubt. I may ponder and think again and even second guess all my decisions but it is still mine. There is not a thing about the way that I’m that I would change. The rant within might continue but I AM WHAT I AM!
A mother of two, Preeti Bhandari is a colloquial writer. She believes in simple living which reflects in her writings. As the Editor of Narisakti, she intends to use her vast experience to propel this platform to a cult status among entrepreneurial networks. When not writing she is quilling, both with paper and thoughts.
Well written!