My Drug of Choice – Struggle

We all have some sort of addiction! Most of us are addicted to something- Sugar, Chocolate, Tea, Coffee, Drugs etc. What we do not realize is that some are also addicted to an emotion. Being sad, that low feeling is what gives us the hope of going on and forward.

I have that emotion too, that I cling on to pretty bad. I have this constant need to be able to complain. There should be some sort of struggle in life in order to feel alive. I have everything, good friends, family, food, clothes and money in the bank and yet I do not feel privileged, simply coz I am addicted to the mind being in constant struggle.

Many times, I tried to understand as to why I do what I do! And failed, but what I should have been doing is to get accustomed to it and then follow on. As is the case with any drug. You can either let it control you or you control it!

When you can’t help it, Own it!

Better said than done. When the entire life goes by being a victim, no one helped to turn the table around. No one guided to see things from a different perspective. So, what changed now? I still have all those things, but now I have accepted that yes, I have a problem and the solution too lies within me!

Working towards that is what keeps me going. The process of accepting and then moving ahead should never stop. Brooding over and mulling things is going to complicate things and escalate it to no return point. While I understand what I have and what I can do with it!

Solution to my drug problem is not abstinence but not let things get escalated to the point of no return.

Acceptance and will power to move towards something new should be what keeps me going. Don’t get addicted to even emotions is what is the need of the hour.