We humans as emotional beings are also fools, we are always looking forward to losing ourselves. While our purpose in life should be to grow, prosper and improve; we spend our life trying to belittle ourselves. We become losers of some sort, who no one wants to associate with. It is only after a jolt that we realize the error in our ways.
This is my journey; you may have a different take on a similar situation. This article(lament) is in no way to pull anyone down but to save myself from spiraling down.
1. Waiting for a miracle
For the longest time, I remember that I have been trying to find a reason and desperate ‘why’ to be able to do what I have been planning for. I have to lose weight, I need to go to the gym, I ought to eat healthily, I wanna write more, I must do my craft work and so on! The list is never-ending. I have a newsflash for you- no such miracle is going to happen, where one day you will wake up all determined!
Unless you jump in and find/create your own miracle it will not happen. It is a constant struggle and internal monologue! But I would not be writing this article if I had not taken the first step and it is going to be a continuous process.
2. Dependency
We mediocre people tend to hitch our wagons onto more popular, successful engines. We start putting them on a pedestal where our happiness depends on how their mood during the day is. Why and when did I give that power to someone else? And the logical woman in me who just wanted to be independent realized and cringed that someone else had that power over me. Well, no more!
3. Not knowing the potential
I can’t believe anyone in this world is without potential! Where we all fall short is when we don’t see it anymore because we are either spoon-fed in childhood or the hunger for desired output has vanished. Successful leaders are self-aware of their capabilities and choices and know exactly what they want in life. Above all, they know their levels and the limits to which they can push themselves.
It is not our limitations that limit us, it is the roadblocks in our minds that limit us.
4. Peers, the public and society should hold no space
I have often limited myself to thinking what s/he said, what my family will think! In this whole process of overthinking about others, what I need to do for myself gets lost somewhere! At the level where I am still figuring out things for myself, I can’t take the POV of all those who do not matter.
5. No more pity party
I have often thrown a party of one for victimizing myself! Oh, poor me, poor Pree! No more sweet Pree, it is time to now be selfish Pret! Selfish does not mean stepping on someone else’s shoes but prioritizing my own needs above others expectations of me!
I may be too old to figure myself out! But that again is a wall I am building up to pull myself down! I need to learn to fly and not clip my wings. There is no time like now to begin growing and not lose oneself!
Let me know your thoughts and your experiences.
A mother of two, Preeti Bhandari is a colloquial writer. She believes in simple living which reflects in her writings. As the Editor of Narisakti, she intends to use her vast experience to propel this platform to a cult status among entrepreneurial networks. When not writing she is quilling, both with paper and thoughts.